So, in my last blog I told you guys that my daughter just turned 2 this month. She is my first and only child. I don’t have any younger siblings or anything. So everything is completely new to me. I know I’m not the perfect mother, but I do try really hard to always do things right with her. I want us to always have a good relationship, like the one I had with my grandmother. I try really hard to find a balance. To take care of her, give her what I can, teach her, discipline her, etc. That’s hard enough in itself, but I strive to be the best person I can be. I try to find a way to balance it all. Be a good mother, good girlfriend, good daughter, good sister, good friend, good employee, etc. Sometimes life just gets really overwhelming. But despite it I will never stop being me. I know you can’t please everyone all the time. But I try. I put a lot of pressure on myself to take care of everything. I push myself all the time to be better. I have all these dreams and goals that I do intend to reach. And I know I won’t reach them if I don’t keep pushing myself.
I never really knew how much my life would change with motherhood. Like everyone tells you how much your life changes. But for me it wasn’t just that. How I saw A LOT of things changed. I’m happy with who I am for the most part. There are some things I still intend to change (mainly physically). But it will all happen in good time. I think I’ve started to find a pretty good balance to things. Just lately some things have happened that have just sorta thrown me for a loop lol. But I’ll adjust =] That’s all life really is, learning to adjust or adapt with all the changes that constantly happen. But I think for the most part everything will turn out alright. I’m a good mother. I always put my daughter first and always try to keep the peace between our families. I think I’m a good girlfriend, I’m faithful and loyal and have done everything I can to help him. I try to be a good daughter. Me and mother still have a lot of work to do on our relationship but it’s better than it has been in years. I’m a good sister. I try to always be there for my brother despite it all. I think I’m a good friend. I do go out of my way to help my friends when I’m able to. I’m a good employee. I just need to be better about being on time lol.
But that’s all I had to say today. All you moms out there who are trying to find the balance too, you’re not alone =] And if you ever need anything I’m here =] Just remember as long as YOU’RE happy with who you are then don’t let anyone ever put you down or make you feel like you’re not good enough!